What is wrong with me?

I know I have more fun on Uncletopia servers than on Skial 24/7 2fort servers, yet I always join the Skial servers. I don't have fun on Skial, yet I always join there. I know I don't have fun, and I know I would rather be playing on Uncletopia, yet I still play on Skial. I've tried blacklisting all Skial servers so I wouldn't see them, and be compelled to join despite not wanting to, yet after a day or two I un-blacklist them and play on them again. What is wrong with me? How do I stop this?

Author: TheBrickleer