valerieLessThan3
Unremarkable User
Link to your ban from here https://www.skial.com/sourcebans/
Please click on Ban List or Comm List and click advanced search.
https://www.skial.com/sourcebans/index.php?p=banlist&advSearch=TROLLMAN2868298999921&advType=name
Why should you be unbanned?
To start off this appeal, I'm just going to make it clear in no uncertain terms that I understand what I did wrong, and that my past behavior on your servers was inappropriate, unacceptable, and unbecoming of a member of your community. I very much believe the punishment I received for my actions both was warranted and deserved, and as such I have no defense for my actions. I'm willing to take full accountability for my actions that have transpired as I now know that running away from my problems is not how I can grow as a human being. I know that talking about anything that was going on, either in my head or at that moment in my life do not in the slightest excuse any of my actions. I know that an apology will not take back the truly hostile, vile things I said, and I accept that there's an incredibly high chance that this appeal will immediately be declined. However, I very, very recently as I am writing this had an epiphany regarding my recent actions as well as my behavior as whole, and not just towards this community.
Currently as we speak, I am taking real, actual steps to address my abhorrent behavior as of recent, and this includes taking the time I've needed to stop putting off to the backburner finally attempting to seek therapy for my awful demeanor. I do not wish to blame my behavior on my depression, my anxiety, my anger management issues, or anything else anymore. I blame my behavior on myself and my shortcomings as a person. I wish to make an actual improvement to my life so that I can not only be a better member of this community, but so that I can be a better person as a whole and potentially give back for the damage I've caused. I apologize for my actions with both utmost sincerity and the will and desire to improve. I understand that it may be difficult to trust me as I say all of this, hence this is why I wish to appeal for a decreased sentence rather than a full unban, that way I remain punished for my actions, but I can still show room to grow and improve with little risk of further endangering your community.
Instead of a permanent ban, I'd like to appeal instead for a lengthy communications ban, while still being allowed to play on your servers. Alternatively, a reduction to the ban sentence overall would also be good for proving that I'm willing to put my money where my mouth is and take the time I say I will to improve myself before I come back. I fully understand that you're under no obligation to even entertain this idea, as I've been blatantly and repeatedly abusive with my conduct and communications even going as far to dodge mutes and gags, and making me unable to communicate for a long period of time will not undo the actions I have done. However, I'd like to appeal to the staff of Skial that many of my formative hours as a player back when I first started playing Team Fortress 2 were spent on your servers, and there is nothing more that I want than to still be able to spend many hours more with this community and branch of servers that were essentially my home, both before the bot invasion, and amidst it.
In finality, I would like to once again take the opportunity to apologize from the bottom of my heart for my previous actions and behavior. I also want to stress that I'm actively looking to seek therapy with the guidance and instruction of my sister who I recently confided with regarding my abusive, self-destructive, abhorrent behavior towards not only the community but others and myself. I've taken time to reflect on my actions and understand both the harm that I have caused as well as how and why what I did was wrong. I am the furthest thing from a perfect person but that is no excuse, and I hope I've made it clear that I haven't a single excuse or a reason for any single one of my flaws as a human being nor my actions. No amount of depression, stress, anxiety I face permits me to act the way I did towards others as others have been in my circumstances or worse and knew how to treat their fellow man better. I understand there is nothing I can do to fix what I've done and all I can do now is try and pick up the pieces and improve myself. I don't know if this appeal will even be considered, but I'd like one final chance both to be able to play on your servers and to prove what I'm saying here is not just lipservice. Put me on the shortest leash you can find, put me on the thinnest ice you can find, but all I ask for at the end of the day is one more chance to be able to play on your servers again and prove that I can grow as a human being and perhaps be someone who contributes goodness and positivity to your community, to attempt to offset my awful and destructive actions.
Please click on Ban List or Comm List and click advanced search.
https://www.skial.com/sourcebans/index.php?p=banlist&advSearch=TROLLMAN2868298999921&advType=name
Why should you be unbanned?
To start off this appeal, I'm just going to make it clear in no uncertain terms that I understand what I did wrong, and that my past behavior on your servers was inappropriate, unacceptable, and unbecoming of a member of your community. I very much believe the punishment I received for my actions both was warranted and deserved, and as such I have no defense for my actions. I'm willing to take full accountability for my actions that have transpired as I now know that running away from my problems is not how I can grow as a human being. I know that talking about anything that was going on, either in my head or at that moment in my life do not in the slightest excuse any of my actions. I know that an apology will not take back the truly hostile, vile things I said, and I accept that there's an incredibly high chance that this appeal will immediately be declined. However, I very, very recently as I am writing this had an epiphany regarding my recent actions as well as my behavior as whole, and not just towards this community.
Currently as we speak, I am taking real, actual steps to address my abhorrent behavior as of recent, and this includes taking the time I've needed to stop putting off to the backburner finally attempting to seek therapy for my awful demeanor. I do not wish to blame my behavior on my depression, my anxiety, my anger management issues, or anything else anymore. I blame my behavior on myself and my shortcomings as a person. I wish to make an actual improvement to my life so that I can not only be a better member of this community, but so that I can be a better person as a whole and potentially give back for the damage I've caused. I apologize for my actions with both utmost sincerity and the will and desire to improve. I understand that it may be difficult to trust me as I say all of this, hence this is why I wish to appeal for a decreased sentence rather than a full unban, that way I remain punished for my actions, but I can still show room to grow and improve with little risk of further endangering your community.
Instead of a permanent ban, I'd like to appeal instead for a lengthy communications ban, while still being allowed to play on your servers. Alternatively, a reduction to the ban sentence overall would also be good for proving that I'm willing to put my money where my mouth is and take the time I say I will to improve myself before I come back. I fully understand that you're under no obligation to even entertain this idea, as I've been blatantly and repeatedly abusive with my conduct and communications even going as far to dodge mutes and gags, and making me unable to communicate for a long period of time will not undo the actions I have done. However, I'd like to appeal to the staff of Skial that many of my formative hours as a player back when I first started playing Team Fortress 2 were spent on your servers, and there is nothing more that I want than to still be able to spend many hours more with this community and branch of servers that were essentially my home, both before the bot invasion, and amidst it.
In finality, I would like to once again take the opportunity to apologize from the bottom of my heart for my previous actions and behavior. I also want to stress that I'm actively looking to seek therapy with the guidance and instruction of my sister who I recently confided with regarding my abusive, self-destructive, abhorrent behavior towards not only the community but others and myself. I've taken time to reflect on my actions and understand both the harm that I have caused as well as how and why what I did was wrong. I am the furthest thing from a perfect person but that is no excuse, and I hope I've made it clear that I haven't a single excuse or a reason for any single one of my flaws as a human being nor my actions. No amount of depression, stress, anxiety I face permits me to act the way I did towards others as others have been in my circumstances or worse and knew how to treat their fellow man better. I understand there is nothing I can do to fix what I've done and all I can do now is try and pick up the pieces and improve myself. I don't know if this appeal will even be considered, but I'd like one final chance both to be able to play on your servers and to prove what I'm saying here is not just lipservice. Put me on the shortest leash you can find, put me on the thinnest ice you can find, but all I ask for at the end of the day is one more chance to be able to play on your servers again and prove that I can grow as a human being and perhaps be someone who contributes goodness and positivity to your community, to attempt to offset my awful and destructive actions.
